I was in my 30s when I converted, so I never was moved by the reward and punishment arguments I learned in the church. I realized for whom they were made. If I feel myself being pulled into that way of thinking, I try to correct myself, because I think it would represent a regression instead of an advance.
The main reason not to sin, that I see, is that sin is unwise, and causes pain and damage long term, either to me or to those around me, usually to both. The commandments exist so that we hopefully don’t have to find out every single thing like that the hard way. Learning the hard way is the best way to truly know, so that we have no doubts ever, and know exactly why a commandment exists, but it also causes a lot of unnecessary damage to us and the people around us while we’re learning.
The commandments are the rules laid down by good and wise parents, to try to keep us from harm while we’re growing up. I trust that guidance, because I already knew most of it was wise when I joined, I’ve since learned for myself about other parts (when I put them to the test), and so I have faith in most of the remainder, that I’m still struggling to learn how to implement. There are a few parts about which I have doubts, in that I’m either not sure if they apply to me, or not sure if they’re truly inspired guidance. I think the process by which we grapple with all these things and sort them out is a healthy and life-affirming one. Being sure we know all the answers is deadly. =)]]>
I’m not suggesting that training wheels aren’t useful. I’m also not even remotely suggesting that I’m zooming around without them.]]>
Which other commandments do I keep for what reasons…it scares me sometimes to examine that.]]>