Voices in My Head: An Introduction

D Christian Harrison - September 9, 2005

With Rusty’s continued indulgence, I’d like to chat a bit about something that’s pretty near to me. I’ve been meaning to write it up in an essay for months… but haven’t yet — trepidation and time conspiring to keep me silent. Perhaps this week, with a little bit of y’all’s help, I’ll put some meat on her bones — flesh-out the line a bit.

You see, I am asked (more than I thought I would be) how it is that I can be both gay and Mormon.

Some of my Mormon friends wonder how a good mormon boy can even countenance such a lifestyle, and a few of my gay friends can barely hide their disdain for a religion that they see as being horribly horribly wrong. And then there are the young men (mostly) who struggle with their orientation and ask me how I do it — how I keep the faith.

I don’t know, really… so maybe it’s time that I figure it out a bit. Give some sound to those voices in my head.

So stick with me over the next few days as I discuss some basic terminology, socio-sexual identity, a few interesting points of doctrine… and, ultimately, a few possible paths the Church could walk in addressing homosexuality’s place in the Great Plan of Happiness.

I’m reticent, of course, because words have power… and I fear that my words today may not reflect my feelings tomorrow. But I’m more afraid that I’m completely off-base, that I’ve done the math and missed something along the way. This is hardly a light matter, so it’s natural to be concerned…

I’m not a theologian, and I have no stewardship in the Kingdom that would begin to give me any special prerogative, here. Nope… I’m just a man of abiding faith and a deep testimony of the gospel, trying to come to terms with his own sexuality… and I’d like y’all to join me as I hash-out a few ideas over the next few days.

I’d be much obliged.

Part I
Part II
Part III
Part IV

10 Comments »

  1. Silus,
    I’m very much looking forward to these posts. I hope we can get some good questions and feedback (and hoping that this forum will be a bit more active next week than this last).

    Comment by Rusty — September 9, 2005 @ 12:30 pm

  2. I aim to please!

    : )

    I really am hoping that the posts generate a lot of quality discussion.

    Comment by Silus Grok — September 9, 2005 @ 1:14 pm

  3. I’m really looking forward to this too.

    Comment by Susan M — September 9, 2005 @ 3:06 pm

  4. Wow, Im impressed that someone will have the guts to put himself out there like you have already. I think I will deeply enjoy reading the posts the next few days, and maybe Ill actualy read my brothers blog regularly because of it ^^.

    Comment by Bryce — September 10, 2005 @ 6:26 pm

  5. I’m looking forward to reading your thoughts.

    Comment by Mark — September 10, 2005 @ 11:56 pm

  6. I’m in the same boat, Silus, so I’ll be interested in your take.

    Incidentally, this month’s Dialogue has an article by someone who claims to be openly gay, but has married his girlfriend from BYU. It isn’t a new story, but his openness about it does seem new.

    Comment by D. Fletcher — September 11, 2005 @ 3:56 pm

  7. Glad I dropped by, this should be interesting.

    Comment by Stephen M (Ethesis) — September 11, 2005 @ 6:39 pm

  8. Wow, I think I’m coming to these posts a few days late … but I’m intrigued by the topic. Thanks for being willing to open up and share your thoughts and insights.

    Comment by danithew — September 13, 2005 @ 11:21 pm

  9. You’re an excellent writer! Congrats!

    Comment by Banda10101 — September 26, 2005 @ 6:49 pm

  10. You’re too kind, Banda… but thank you. Please take a little time to read the entire series. I’d love to have your feedback.

    Comment by Silus Grok — September 27, 2005 @ 12:53 am

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