Tithing is easy. Fasting is a piece of cake. Fast offering – no problem. Thou shalt not kill – a no brainer. Love God – sure. Scripture study – I love it. FHE when we had kids at home was a challenge, but not too bad. Home teaching, good companion, good families so it’s done monthly.
But prayer! UGH now that’s hard.
I find it hard for several reasons. First I’m embarrassed to talk to Heavenly Father when I know I’ve just done something I shouldn’t have – when I know I’ve sinned. Especially when I’m not to the repentence part of the program. It seems silly to “talk” about other things and skip around the “sin”.
Second, I find it very difficult not to be redundant. Vain repetitions…I’m sometimes vain and quite often repetitious. I seem to be thankful for the same things, and I ask for the same blessings. Sure there is an important one, once and a while, but generally it’s the same things.
Next I have nothing new to say, I mean come on, pray twice a day as a family plus individual prayers…how am I supposed to come up with something new.
Oh, and another thing, since God knows what I need and what would be best for me why ask for anything specific? If I always ask that God’s will be done, then why not just thank Him all the time, or just ask to be blessed with whatever He knows I need and leave it open.
I also have a difficult time because prayer is a one way situation rather than a conversation. I sometimes think how much better prayer would be if it were a conversation and I could actually discuss and ask questions with real-time answers. I’ve always appreciated my dad’s advice and being able to bounce things off him. I sometimes wish God were more like that. (I know then there wouldn’t be any faith etc., but it still would be neat!)
Prayer is hard! I’m working on it, I wish it was as easy as tithing.